Category Archives: Prison

We get these little one ounce Packets of peanut butter and the same for Jelly. So i get the peanut butter nice and creamy by soaking the Packet in Hot water. Then i tear a corner off and i swirl it from the middle out on one piece of my bread. Yes is is sort of an obsessive/compulsive thing. But it also is one of these little ways to escape the corporal punishment of the prison life. A little victory.

9-15-11 9 30/p.m.

Every human being searches for self enlightenment. If we didn’t religion wouldn’t exist.

Just think Amy where you once tried to tell their stories and got only edited versions out to the world with little or no help to them. Now you tell their stories in the truest way by giving them a venue to do so. You’ve told your story. You might think at times whats so enteresting about my story. I’m just another Pedestrian at a crosswalk a face in the crowd. The only thing people will see is i have a serial rapist for a friend. And they’ll hate me for it.

So heres what i believe the common sense down to earth people will see My friend. They’ll see the story of a woman struggling to find her center, The good in life. She’s seeking safety in love. The good in people instead of her cynical mistrust. They’ll see some part of themselves in you. Like it or hate it really doesn’t matter. The ones who respond vehemently Amy have their own unresolved issues.

Look we both know there’s a part of you who like them will Never forget. And know as surely as they do what i did. Things Not even the greater public knows. There was a part of you who hated me, was truly sickened by me. Who struggled then and even now to reconcile how i fit into that place you gave me in your life. If they think this was easy they are fools. And Those who spew the venomous hate at you because of me or their own tormentor are losing out on the truth.

Brent Brents 9-11-11 7:30 /p.m.

My two library books i got on Mondays order, one was ok but way to short a pocket mystery/spy novel. The other a Murder Mystery is missing 65 pages right in the middle of the book. 😦 Assholes!!!
I swear They should give these little illiterate shits crayons and coloring books. This library has Yates, O’Henry, Shakespeare, Milton and a bunch of other really Good Poets, Playwrites and Authors. But they are all trashed. Because Anything that isn’t Fucking, Killing, or druging Sucks! Weak minded Motherfuckers. Shakespear! Awesome Murder, Sexual Plots. I can’t remember the poet who ended up broke and literaly drug addicted in Boston in the 1880s. But we Love his work. Poe. If ever there was an addicted Poet!

These guys don’t realize that opium and cocain have been here for a long long time. And many of the greats wrote in drug addicted fogs, or about the addicted life. They Trash anything Jewish. Especially the Skin heads. They don’t even realize their hero was part Jewish himself and stole a great deal of his manifesto from the CZARist Russians of the late 1800s and early 1900s. That their idols the SS an German Soldiers were rapists of Jewish girls and boys. How can you idolize people who starve children or burn people in ovens. Just about every book in this library is trashed in some way and more than anything it’s a sad statement of what hate and ignorance breed in the human race.

Brent Brents 9-7-11

So The Psych Dr put me on my 3rd and (we hope) final psych med. So far its working well it keeps me sleepy at night and even if i get woke up i am to tired to care and go right back to sleep. Plus it keeps the clomipramine and Depakote from Counter acting each other.

Brent Brents 9-5-11

I’ve been in my head all week trying to figure out the enclosed letter…(to my mother). Please post it…i just know i have to say goodbye and i forgive you. And move on or she will be my personal demon forever. And if i let that happen i won’t make it.

Brent Brents 9-5-11

What i am really hoping to encourage is to get those who didn’t choose my path to explore the whys of their own changes and past them. I think its important to know what happened for them that kept them from the path i chose. I think the direct contrast is important. I know it will set me up for Ridicule and serve to make me even more Monstrous to some. Yet it just seems that something breaks in a mind like mine and i want to help figure that out if i can. Regardless of how people see me.

Brent Brents 8-27-11 11 30/ p.m.