Crazy world in here. The funny thing is The so called “Convict Code” is about Respect. Thats a fucking joke. Hyenas have more Respect than the animals behind prison walls.
-Brent Brents 9-11-14
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“Convict Code’
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I am an American
So 9-11-14. In prison its easy to be hateful on this day. Way to many people who support what the terrorists did. Mostly because of persieved wrongs by the Zionist pigs or American terrorists who bomb our people. YADA YADA YA. And even if it seems in some way Wrong I am an American. And i have pride in my Country and love for our forces. I do think and feel that our Government is a Joke at times (Ok a lot of the time.), But that doesn’t make me hate freedom or democracy.
-Brent Brents 9-11-14
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As a Recovering Ignorant Racist
Well No News today. Just another day of loud ignorance and hate. The two things that get under my skin the most. As a Recovering Ignorant Racist. I know Racism and Ignorance are all about fear and lack of understanding. And there are those who loathe So so hotly. They are so poisoned. Me, I’ve seen so much bullshit in these 45 years. I’ve become Jaded. My hate has shifted. I hate loud people, people who bully, people who can’t judge themselves. Most days I hate myself. Mostly because I am all these people. Except the loud one. That realy is a pet peave of mine.
-Brent Brents 9-2-14
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The scar tissue
Note from Amy: The torn retina Brents is referring to in this excerpt happened when he was 12 and suffered an orbital fracture at the hands of his father:
I went to the optomitrist today. Turns out I realy do Need New glasses. (Badly) My left eye is a little bit worse than it was 3 years ago. And my right is Superbad. Gone fishin! As they say.
She told me i have about ten years of eye sight in my Right eye. If I took care of it. The scar tissue from my torn Retina is pretty bad. I also have fireworks and floaters. Floaters are these little black whisps of smoky fluids that float through the inner eye. The fireworks are just that flashes of light in my eye.
Brent Brents 8-29-14
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What my seizures feel like
Note from Amy: In this excerpt from a recent letter, Brents is referring to my having a concussion after being thrown from a horse to explain how he feels during the seizures he’s had regularly since he was a kid, the result of being beaten by his father:
So now you know What my seizures feel like. As Well as part of my depression. That “lost” feeling realy sucks and its often alarming. The Metal taste is Not a very pleasant taste either. When i have the depresions, it’s this lost feeling, and the physical feeling of the concusion that is realy brutal. It’s difficult to understand how the physical and emotional fit, but they do.
The lack of spirit or will. The Need to sleep as much as possible. Feeling lost bewildered. Add it all up and you get Depression. Oh yeah loss of apitite (Good weight loss helper) Bad physicaly.
I really am Sorry.
-Brent Brents 8-28-14
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All the racists
The funny thing is all the racists live on the same tier. Every day they have their little workout, call out to each other to do it in cadence. Well these black guys came in. So while the Nazis are doing their exercises, they beat on the door and yell.
I swear it’s like a fucking soap opera in here.
-Brent Brents 9-7-14
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without doing violence
So in the 2 1/2 years i have been on my meds i have realy done well and haven’t had any Serious breakdowns that i couldn’t deal with. Any manic times i couldn’t get through without doing violence.
-Brent Brents 8-25-14
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I love Robin Williams
Robin Williams…I guess everyone has a hero he or she secretly loves. Sure there are the Clint Eastwoods or John Waynes. Humphry Bogarts or Lauren Bacalls, Betty Whites.
But for me Robin was it. Secretly I had always wished he would have been my father. Imagine that. A manic depressive criminal wants a manic depressive comedian for a father. So yes when I saw the Breaking news flash Robin Williams dead I lost it. So sad. Heart Broken. I know people may not believe that. Screw em. At least i can be honest. I love Robin Williams. And i am so sad.
I grew up with Robin Williams. Mork and Mindy meant an hour of peace in my home. No Rape, No Beatings, just good laughs. Fear and Nervousness forgotten. I have always been greatful for those cease fire laughs.
-Brent Brents 8-17-14
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My greatest hope
Talk about letting cowardess, bitterness, and hate as well as fear run a life. My greatest hope is this: For all those i hurt Not to turn outwardly the anger, and hate, and fear i caused onto others.
-Brent Brents 7-23-14
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so hungry for love and acceptance
I find myself so full of regrets. I was given this wise sort of ability to help people. Instead i used my hate and this same wisdom to use people. I used way to many people who approached me with open minds, hearts, and faith. I do regret the loss of some, actually most of these people. For someone so hungry for love and acceptance, I really did screw up alot of good people and opportunity.
-Brent Brents 7-23-14
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Diary of a Predator 