It’s weird, I Love Classic Rock. But it seems the older I get i’m Liking some harder music. I think it’s my brains way of easing out its aggression.
Hey a TMI but an important thing, No Masturbation in 2 1/2 years!!! It’s True!!! Even though I’m Not on Depacote and it works again I’ve been a good boy. Amazing if you ask me. For a sexually addicted individual, i am good. It’s easier than i thought Not to spank the bastard.
Says a lot about my state of mind, my spirituality, and my thinking in general. I just don’t feel the need to get off every time Some Violent Sexual BS gets in my Brain. I think my heart has a lot to do with it.
Having Love, Compassion, empathy, really makes me feel a whole Lot different about Life, the way i think, Feel, and behave. Plus, NO Bullshit this Abilify is Really helping me keep my head on straight.
-Brent Brents 3-31-18
I just don’t feel the need to get off every time Some Violent Sexual BS gets in my Brain.
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We average about 6 fights a week here.
Life Sucks a bit. We’re on Lock down yet again. We average about 6 fights a week here. All well we all pay for it. 5 out of the last 8 days we’ve been down.
For me it’s a mixed blessing and a curse. I Like the solitude. But hate that i can’t shower each day. I bird bath 3 to 4 x a day but there is nothing Like a hot steaming shower to get clean. You know me OCD and a shower Hog. :)…
All in All I like my tier…It’s really pretty quiet. We spend most of our out time playing Scrabble or chess. I’m helping this youngster with his GED. Oh speaking of GED I just wrote a kite to education, to see if they can help me get a copy of my certificate…1986 Holy crap that was a long time ago. 32 years!!! Fudge I’m old.
-Brent Brents 3-23-18
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considering the perpetrators of sexual violence
Comment: Hi Amy,
I’m watching your TedTalk and I just wanted to thank you for bringing up this issue of considering the perpetrators of sexual violence. You brought up a good point-that discussing why people commit such acts and seeing their suffering is not the same as excusing their actions. Really-wonderful perspective! Have you ever seen the documentary, The Mask You Live In? This discusses how we bring up boys in society and its negative effects.
Best of luck to you in all of your pursuits!
Amber
Time: May 3, 2018 at 4:54 pm
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They check on me Regularly to see how I’m doing in here.
Enclosed is a picture i had a guy draw you. He’s the best artist in the Pod. It took me a month to talk him into it. But its worth what i paid. I hope you like it. Its Not Super Big. But it is really cool. Look at the eyes under the Light. They are Gold.
So i won’t see the PC Board (note from Amy: protective custody) until they have a handful of guys to enterview for PC. It thier show So i have to wait on them. I’m on a good tier in here so I’m OK now…They check on me Regularly to see how I’m doing in here. The guys all treat me well. And most of them treat me w respect.
-Brent Brents 3-11-18
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my brain is so so mellow
Abilify rocks Amy. This feels like its done more in 7 full days than Depacote did in 6 years. I had one restless night. But that was a Coffee OD. And my brain is so so mellow. Not Depakote Dead!
I had a brief Depression this A.M. But the good old Abilify kicked ass pretty fast. So yes I am truly grateful for the stuff. Good good stuff.
-Brent Brents 2-13-18
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Reader: I’m starting with this woman and moving forwards
Hi Amy,
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no verifiable threat to his safety at this time
From Amy: Brent Brents applied for protective custody at his new prison and was turned down. Here’s an excerpt from the “Notice of Protective Custody Decision”:
“The Committee determined Brent Brents should not be placed in protective custody due to there being no verifiable threat to his safety at this time…”
Generally, inmates in prison for being serial rapists don’t fare well in general population. We’ll see how this goes.
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Reader: Is rape an inevitability?
One response to “As a result of your latest post i have made the decision to not say that rape is worse than murder”
There’s been a delay in my reply to you, I apologise, Brent.. particularly given your powerful response, thank you. My experience since last writing seems to be (as Brene Brown, a researcher òf shame and vulnerability would call) a ‘vulnerability hangover’! Almost from the moment I reached out and shared my experience and thoughts, I felt the shame.. who the hell was I to write something like that? What difference did I think it would make? So I hid away, closed myself off.. just like I’d squidge myself and my duvet under my bed as a child: it was safe under there. What a fraud eh? 🙂
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We have become a society of monster makers.
Comment: Hi Amy,
I just watched your TED Talk on the Brents case. Back when I was studying for an Administration of Justice degree, I remember studying serial killer cases with curiosity at first, but they seemed to run together and became boring to me . . . turns out evil is boring. Human decency really fascinated me because it seemed rarer in media headlines (by design for ad revenue?)
However, when I studied the Carl Panzram case, I was jolted to the core. His acts were no more or less heinous than other “monsters,” but his childhood upbringing really hit me hard. We have become a society of monster makers.
Are you familiar with his case? Books and a feature film were made about it all.
Brent Brents immediately reminded me of Carl Panzram. Your involvement in the Brents case is very similar to Henry Lesser’s intervention with Panzram. He was the one prison guard who treated Panzram as a human being without forgetting for a second the evil he was capable of in his broken state.
Anyway, thanks for talking about this!
Suzanne
Time: March 18, 2018 at 3:57 pm
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Sadly i was pure predator by then.
He’s right. CATC was a damn good place to get help. I just wasn’t trusting or caring enough. I know of only 2 other guys in our group who Reoffended Sexualy. Pablo, Dodi, and Bill put alot of effort into me. Sadly i was pure predator by then. I learned the Language, Manipulated my way thru it in the end.
–Brent Brents
1-14-18
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Diary of a Predator 
What also prickled, was my first public acknowledgement of self blame. That I’d been so willing to accept the invitation of others to pick up the shame of what happened and convince myself that I deserved it. After struggling with this for a while, seeking help, receiving therapy (EMDR rocks), I’ve emerged with renewed curiosity. So, I’ve been reading the posts of others on the blog, as you recommend and the thought has occurred to me: ‘what else can I do to enable movement/growth of the intention of the book & blog?’ .. other questions: Is rape an inevitability? Will the abuse of children always be present in humanity? (As it has been for thousands of years?) Can it be reliably predicted? How can the perpetrator of rape be forgiven? How does the person who was raped ‘become clean’? I believe this blog is a catalyst for these open questions and I’m grateful to be part of it. With love and gratitude, E