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Prison Rules 3

If your not in the gangs steer the fuck clear of them. Never keep drugs or weapons on you when you don’t need them and close at hand if you do. Junkies are considered weak. And drugs inevitably lead to conflict. If you have a hook up (a yard of staff member) who does you favors, Never tell a soul. If your having sex inmate or staff, Always be safe. Stay as healthy as possible always. Physicaly and emotionaly. And lastly the #1 rule about Prison Just when you think you have it all figured out, you find out you don’t know shit! Nothing is at seems and everything is what it is. Or so you think. There are about a Million MOre rules to go over. But they are to Numerous and exhausting. Things like don’t Mix with other races. Don’t sit at this table or that one. This gang gets the weight pile at this time. This phone is for these guys Yada Yada Ya.So Much B.S. Yet oddly important to your survival (Literaly!) If you think real politics are out there, They aint shit compared to prison politics. No one at the GOP Conventions will stab you 70 times if you call them a liar. In prison a candidate for position is likely to be killed to eliminate the opposition. In America Barrack was elected to run the country. In prison no black man will ever run a prison. Maybe a gang. But only white men run prisons on the inside.

–Brent Brents

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Prison Rules 2

Mind your own business at all times but be aware of whats going on around you at all times. Learn to read the environment and the people. Their eyes faces and body movements can tell you any number of things. Whos carrying drugs or contraband or a weapon. Who’s paranoid or scared. Who’s confident and secure in themselves. Who’s volatile and Angry. Who’s about to attack you or someone else Learn when to make eye contact and when not to. To apologize without being weak or seeming weak. How to speak without being disrespectful. Listen more than you speak. You learn more and it keeps predators wary of your true strength. Challenge those who disrespect you with confidence and respect. Don’t talk down to people, challenge their intelligence. Even if you know your smarter or right about something. If it doesn’t directly affect you leave it be. Never borrow beg or steal. You’ll only end up in debt you can not get out of, sucking cock or getting fucked in the ass. Or dead. Never enter a place without an exit strategy. Never go into an enemies area of the yard or gym. Their cell or restroom areas showers, toilets, sinks, urinals etc. (yes Races and the Gangs all have turf in prison.) Don’t make nice with the cops. Give them just enough respect so they do the same for you. Don’t act suspicious or too cool…

–Brent Brents

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Prison Rules

I can’t help but hear people’s conversations. Sadly its the same old clap trap violent, drug and sex fueled lies and half truths and sad truths of you and old criminals. Young men who think They know it all, old men who have seen it all and still failed to gain wisdom from it…Angry young white men who are seeking some kind of Love and recognition. There are the National Latino gangs that exist there Surenos and Nortanos (southerners and northerners.) The National White Gang Arian Brotherhood. The rules are generally the same. Same criminals. Just different Names and faces. Close security here is Just as dangerous and volatile as Limon, Centenial or Sterling. Baby rapers must die, sex offenders are pieces of shit and fair game. Survival is the name of the game trust No one. Watch your back as well as you can. And if you do have to fight, Fight as if your life depends on it. Well because it does. If you win the first encounter it doesn’t mean you’ve won the fight. Its probably not over and it may not be the same opponent in the second or third encounter. One must Never fear Killing another human being. Because they don’t fear the consequences of killing you.

–Brent Brents

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Why Sex For Sale is Sad

Sixty-one percent of teen prostitutes say they were raped as children.

That’s a statistic from an excellent story by Youth Radio about child sex trafficking that aired on NPR tonight. It points out to a depressing pattern of victimization that many in the sex for sale industry continue to live out every day.

And it’s why part of the proceeds from the sale of Diary of a Predator books will go to Street’s Hope, a non-profit Denver-based organization that helps women leave the sex for sale industry. So even as I get frustrated with all of the time it takes to get a book ready for publication, I’m heartened because in some small way, it might help someone.

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So i am on the manic side

ok so i tried to sleep . Key word (TRIED) it isn’t easy being bi polar and mentaly fucked up. I swear there must be a Dung beetle running around in my brain. Packing shit balls in all the very wrong places. So i am on the manic side right now.

When i was a kid in juvenile i spent alot of time in isolation because i just couldn’t get a handle on the bi polar mania. And wow the isolation took a hell of a toll on me. I often retreated into this fantacy land where i had a family and all was well. Amy i was so lonely as a kid in juvy. We all were. It was worse on some of us. And the really bad thing is that there were some realy good people who really tried to help me. I just couldn’t overcome my trust issues enough to accept it honestly. And i was so so screwed up mentaly. I still don’t understand how i have come to be able to manage the ups and downs with the ability i have now. And they are much worse now. I do believe that you are a big part of it. Plus age and maturity.

– Brent Brents, 10-24-10 8 30 a.m.

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I witnessed the brutal terror of domestic violence

So recently i saw a T.V. program on Domestic Violence. I was saddened by the statistics but not surprised. As a child i witnessed the brutal terror of Domestic Violence in my own parents relationship. Frankly i am amazed my mother is alive. And i just wonder how i had the courage to try to keep him from beating her but had the cowardess to become just like him.

Any way what i am writing about is marital rape and for lack of knowledge what i will call domestic rape. I have seen marital rape. And it is i think the most violent torterous control a man can exercise over their spouse. And over the years i have been told it is the least reported rape.

The Domestic Rape (boyfriend, girlfriend) As a teenager and young adult i was guilty of this and i saw alot of my friends do the same. Sometimes it is outright rape. But most often it occurs in the If you love me form of manipulation. Young girls and women with little experience or relationship knowledge succumb to sexual dominance by their partners because of fear or fear of Losing the partners love. And well i don’t care what the experts say we know what we are doing when we pressure and manipulate our partners like this. Its rape at worst and sexual abuse at least.

I don’t know all the dinamics of this type of sexual assault. But i do know it’s very very common and becoming more so in our teen and young adult cultures. So as this website is about helping and healing, I am making a plea to any professional persons who are knowledgeable about this subject to please use this site to educate all of us. But especially those vulnerable to this type of sexual abuse.

Brent Brents 10-5-10 9:20 p.m.

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i had a seizure this morning

I had a seizure this morning. I had a few ok alot But here isn’t much i can do. This mornings kinda freaked me out because i was unable to recognize my surroundings afterward. Usualy i at least know where i am after a few seconds to a minute but this morning it lasted a Long long time and i could Not visualy regain focus. My right eye had turned completely toward my nose. Not Good! All better now though. I’m just glad I was in my cell and not in the shower.

Brent Brents 10-17-10 8:37 a.m.

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i feel much more spiritual these days

Sometimes i don’t know why i feel the things i do or think the way i think. I know i feel much more spiritual these days. Not necisarily on a Christian level. But just a spiritual desire for peace and to love. Hate is such a heavy burden to carry for a life time. And love sure feels a helluva lot warmer. I realy believe love heals.

Brent Brents 10-12-10 3:15 a.m.

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i can hold my hands

Outward and cupped i can hold my hands. And be they filled with riches, They go not unto my next life.

Open and vulnerable i can hold my heart. Be it filled with love, and pour forth love. With Love shall it carry me into the life next.

Brent Brents 10-12-10 12:15 p.m.

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express your feelings

i agree with Amy. Heated discussion is better than no discussion at all. Yet insulting people’s integrity just because you hate me and the things i have done, or disagree with Amy’s or anyone else’s opinions thoughts or feelings on this site. This is counterproductive to what we are all trying to do, trying to achieve.

By all means express your feelings, your thoughts and your opinions. If your outraged this is the place for you to express it civily. And when you have done so, don’t just sign off. Add your ideas of how to “prevent” children from being abused, how to help victims not become offenders. How to help or integrate sex offenders back into society or not do so. If you have a safe service to offer victims or people in need of healing then speak up.

No idea, plan or thought is too ridiculous. Ridiculous is Not speaking up, Not taking a risk, Not doing something to change what we all know to be the root causes of predatory behaviors.

By all means have feelings, emotions, Thoughts, ideas and opinions. They don’t have to be popular, comfortable or “mainstream” to be valuable. Believe me being proactive sure feels a hell of a lot better than wallowing in bitterness, hatred, fear, insecurity and negativity. And who knows people. The combined efforts of all of you could help and save one or many from suffering the savage ugliness of sexual abuses, or maybe keep one victim from becoming a predator.

If we take sides, draw lines in the sand we help no one. And that is a sad commentary on all of us.

-Brent Brents

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