Hey I was wondering what do you think they would do if i asked for the death penalty or summery execution. I believe i can make a strong case for the courts. I’m not sure how to go about it. I think i would have to ask the state courts first. Then go thru their appelet process, exhaust it. Then move to the US Federal Courts. Of course i would need legal help. Since i can’t afford that i would have to get a judge to appoint me legal council. I kinda know the basic process. But not well enough to be effective at any level without council.
After all Amy what kind of life do i have to look forward to. If i go to G.P. I will be killed or hurt. If i am hurt i end up in here anyway. If i am killed well i am killed. I could go to G.P. and when the eventual happens make sure someone sues on my behalf (money to charity of course) But thats not a game i want to play. Truthfully if i die i want it to be on my terms. What is my life worth. I”m costing tax payers around $150 a day, Roughly $54,000 a year. Can you imagine what ten to fifteen more years will cost. It cost the state about $50,000 to execute an inmate in over all costs. The feds even less.
Louisiana executes sexual offenders. They say our quality of living is ok. But i think living this way erodes the human brain and i will tell you those 7 days in G.P. were really hard on me. Not because of worry but because i have become seriously fucked up in my brain. I am worse than antisocial. I just have lost some ability to communicate. Ad to that my issues, and i was in fight or flight mode 24 hours a day.
I literaly have a deep hatred for the people around me. It’s the same old shit i have lived with my whole life and it’s a poison i detest. And i detest those who spew it forth. I hate the guards. The suits. The whole system. Its one perpetual life, falsehood and blackhole that eats your soul up. Quality of life my ass. I’m so worn out Amy.
I wish i could have a more peaceful life. But i will tell you this in all sincerity. No matter how much of a toll this takes on me. I will do it honestly because i owe it to them. All of them. They are to many like me who sit idle and never think of or care for those they victimize. I did that for the first 16. Not this time. No matter how much i feel like dying i won’t do it. I will stick it out.
Brent Brents, 3-9-11
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if i asked for the death penalty
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a mood stabilizer called Depacote
So either tomorrow morning or evening i start on a mood stabilizer called Depacote. As you know i have been struggling greatly with the mental health issues. For a great many years. So it is time to stop and try to get a handle on it. Or at least try. More than you can ever know this decision really has broken my spirit. If there was one thing i felt good about it was that i could control my bipolar self. Having to admit defeat sucks. I feel less and yet, i am relieved. I just hope it works.
Ok heres how it’s going to work according to my psychiatrist. To start with i will take 250 mg. of the Depacote 2X a day for three weeks. Then either raise, take me off and try some different or leave it as is. This all depends on how i adjust to it mentaly and physicaly.
Phase two will be to address specificly my obsessive compulsivety and anxiety with Zoloft or a drug like it, again in a small doses to see if i will be stable on this drug type.
Phrase three, if one and two are sucessful i will then start a drug like Zyprexa this is specifically to help me gain a consistant sleep pattern. Getting hopefully 6 to 8 hours of sleep each night. She (my psych) thinks that alot of my mental health issues are due to Never having had a consistant sleep routine in my life. Sleeping in little 1 to 2 hour blocks and having restless sleep is seriously bad for the brain she tells me. @* REALLY! REALLY! REALLY! NO YOU DON’T SAY! Ok so that’s the plan.
Brent Brents, 2-21-11
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The sarrow and shame
In this post, Brent is referring to the anniversary of his final crime spree before his capture in February of 2005:
Do you realize in just five days and today too. All the hell i created. Plus all the others. It’s alot to absorb each day. And it doesn’t get any easier with the passing of the years. They are all in my head and in my heart. The sarrow and shame Never lessen. If anything it gets worse. I feel like i don’t have the right to hate my situation and whats happening. But it’s only natural. Yet i fight it. Because it is what i deserve. I really hope it gets better than this and soon. I’m not sure how much more i want to live with.
Brent Brents, 2-14-11
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Big elephants that have affection for us
Heres something to consider. Have you ever thought about how blessed the human race is to have animals Like dogs, cats, horses and others like dolphins, birds and Big elephants that have affection for us. Without that Amy we would live miserable lives. And the world would definitely suck. Animals have definetly shaped our world.
Brent Brents, 1-23-11
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Assembly line criminals
Theres really nothing new. It’s prison. Same shit different state different people same old stoopidity, and ignorance. I think that for some reason there is a blue print or secret government project that develops prisoners like Matel manufactures Ken Barbie and GI Joe. Assembly line criminals and Prison Guards. Way too many dudes look and act alike. In different states.
Brent Brents, 1-23-11
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I think i had one of those things again
I hope you’re sleeping better than me right now. My brain is all fucked up. I think i had one of those things again. when i came out of it i knew where i was almost immediately but i couldn’t make sense of 1 + 1, Felt like i had forgotten something critical. Just couldn’t get straight. Still kinda wierded out. I know i was asleep when i had it. But i guess it feels worse than the ones i have while awake. Alot of confusion and my tongue lips and jaw are still numb. Plus my eye finaly straightened out. It was trying to get to know my other eyeball. Hey haven’t seen you here before, what’s your name? Ya know i wish i didn’t have these things. They really are scary. Absolutely no control of my brain. That sucks.
Brent Brents, 1-4-11 1 15/A.M.
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Who’s the dumbass. the Rockstar or the inmate
I was singing your my best friend in the shower (by Queen). One of the Nazis popped off about someone singing a fag song. And i thought ya know for a guy who worships a dictator who tried to wipe out his own people and led an army of mindless drones and did so much needless killing and destruction i can deal with a sawed off 5′ foot motor mouth meth baby. Freddy may have been gay. But hey guess what your eatin prison food dude. 🙂 Get real Who’s the dumbass. The Rockstar or the inmate.
Brent Brents, 12-30-10 10:00 p.m.
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like a bucket of chum just got dumped into a shark tank
You know there are places inmates can write for pen pals. So these guys get these lists of women from these places. And man it’s like a bucket of chum just got dumped into a shark tank. Ok lets do simple reality. 2.2 million inmates in the U.S. 2 million are male. These pen pal companions have i’d guess lets say generously 100,000 women seeking pen pals. 45 % are female inmates seeking “free” men or women for the same reason the men are. Money. So now we have 55,000 women remaining. About 35,000 of them are baby boomers and older seniors who are seeking “free” men as well for companionship. Another 10,000 are from other countries seeking men for marriage and legal entry into the US. So now we have 10,000 women for 2.2 million men. You can eliminate about 5,000 of them because they cannot receive correspondence from inmates. 5,000 left. Now about 250,000 men cannot receive correspondence from inmates. 1,750,000 left.
750,000 or more are content with current relationships. 1 million left. About 250,000 can’t afford to get the addresses 750,000 left. Another 250,000 don’t really care to use the services. 500,000. And About half of that 500,000 have other reasons for not using the service. So 250,000 men vying for 5,000 women Money Love and attention. That is 50 letters 50 men on average a woman gets. And you can bet the ones who are broke, idiots and most often in prison as well get thrown in the trash. And just as the women are picky, 99% of the men who write for these women’s addresses are seeking those things $$$, sex and visits.
So yes i am very amused because 250,000 inmates in the US, not to mention the 100,000 worldwide are competing for these 5,000 women. And in the end it will be Joe Schmoe who isn’t in prison who ends up with the girl. At least until a richer or better looking Joe Schmoe comes along. And the inmates will all still be desparately seeking Susans. I use Susans rather than bitches, hos, cunts, sugar mamas, moneybags pump and dums, Fat girls Bank bed and bye byes, etc. And don’t get me wrong i would offer an honest guess that there are close to two or three million women who fall prey to these shit heads. I know guys who have four or five women at a time on the hook as they say. It is sad but true.
Brent Brents, 12-23-10 9:50 p.m.
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Amy responds to a reader’s concerns
To call Brent Brents and animal is an insult to animals. There is no excuse. We all live the the same messed up cruel environment. People make choices. He chose to be the person he is. Victims of sexual abuse should be outraged that this sick twisted bastard uses the excuse of sexual abuse for his crimes. Does this mean his victims will go out and do the same. NO. Do you even know what comments like that do to  survivors child of sexual abuse. I do. Put that one away and don’t use it as part of you pathethic attempt to gain sympathy, empathy or understanding for your behavior. It has nothing to do with what you are. You are what you are because you wanted it that way. Nothing more, Nothing less. You don’t deserve a website like this. Your a waste of space, time and effort. Go do your time and leave the world alone. You have done enough damage.
-Elizabeth
Hi, Elizabeth,
I appreciate you taking the time to write, and I realize that the website brought up strong feelings for you. I understand that.
It’s important that you know that Brents does not mean for his revelations of his childhood abuse to be used as excuses for what he did. He has repeatedly said there are no excuses, and that, as you point out, he made choices. I agree.
I also believe that by understanding someone, it’s more difficult to hate them. It’s a theme that is explored in my book, Diary Of A Predator: A Memoir, which is the basis for the website. And that’s not just in relation to Brents. That book is more my memoir than his, about the excoriating effect that covering his case had on my life. It changed me forever.
As for the space, time and effort, I post letters from Brents on this website to illustrate elements of his humanity. As for whether or not that exists, you and I will have to agree to disagree.
Sincerely,
Amy Herdy
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the junior predator upstairs
A young black man has been challenging all the younger and weaker inmates in the pod acting like a big man. When he’s really not much. But he’s irritating nonetheless. It’s pretty easy to talk a big game behind a locked door. For some of us who have the skill and have on many occasions used it and are confident in it There is no need to be up at the door screaming threats. It’s a simple matter of when  you see that person you try to kill them end of story. No talk no negotiations. Just business. If you get hurt or die thats just how it goes. Of course if your not at the door acting childish or foolish then the chances of finding yourself in a conflict are far less. And just being an adult and Not getting involved in prison politics in the first place is the best and brightest move any one can make. It’s a stoopid thing to do. There really is only one trustworthy candidate when it comes to self preservation in here. “Yourself!” Allies become enemies in the blink of an eye. Enemies are often better friends. Because you know where they stand. So as i sit here I watch, i listen, i learn and i evolve. Self preservation. And manage to ignore the junior predator upstairs who is a lesser food chain kind of person.Brent Brents, 12-23-10  9 50/p.m.
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Diary of a Predator 