Absolutely crazy weekend.
Well 2 guys got into a fight… They weren’t surrendering. So the cops tried to throw a grenade in. It missed and bounced back out around the cops and blew up. So they shut off the wi-fi and locked us all down. Still locked down, but they let us have visits, and wi-fi back…
I hope U have had a good mothers day. Oh you should google doberman / coon hound mix dogs. Truly beautiful and inteligent. Very tolerant, animal friendly and trainable. Saw 2 on tv in the last 2 months. 1 won the the Purina Dog Challenge distance jump. 32 feet+.
Such a beautiful dog. Dont look any thing like coonhounds as adults. Dont look like dobis’ either. Really sleek and muscular, but not scary doberman looking. I’m in love w/ them.
-Brent Brents 5-13-2918
These fricken kids act like children. And i get annoyed real easy w/ certain things. We have 1 guy who gets really stupid w/ his mouth. Telling the cops shit like he’ll tie them up and make them watch while he beats thier kids w/ a ballpien hammer.
What kinda of shit is that. I dont want 2 hear that shit. He’s lucky i’m not like i was ten yrs ago. I aint best buddies w/ the C/Os, but that kinda of talk about hurting kids is purely sick and fucked up. So yes today has been agrivating at best. But i have been giving up on my need to control my surroundings. That includes the people in it.
Man emotionaly i feel every bit of 100 today. This abilify is a God send. W/out it, i’d be hell on wheels today. The stuff has really helped my awareness as far as recognising my different moods. The depacote didnt help me. I was always tired and burned out.
I’m alive w/ this stuff. Not manic crazy, but alive, even though today is a bad day. I still feel ok about me. I’m not plotting 2 hurt any 1. Not feeing that crazy sick feeling in my tummy i get when i get angry. Yes i was pissed off at the dude. But what good would it do 2 hold on 2 it. Not a damn thing but get me into trouble. So all is good on a bad day.
-Brent Brents 4-27-18
So yes, i fucked up big time. Did i plan for it? No! Was i fully aware? To a point. Yet i just did not have control of my mind. When the young man hit me i was nonplussed. Confused. Like what the hell did he hit me for. Clearly i had put my hand down and was on the retreat. But my mind went way back in time to when Ron hit me in the face and hurt me really bad. This kid was weak Amy barely any force behind the punch. But i saw Rons huge fist slam into the left side of my cheek, and this blinding rage hit me so hard so deep that i was going to kill this kid. And I comenced to do just that. I don’t really remember what i did but it was bad. My knuckles are still scabbed over and painfully swollen. Almost 30 days later. I was officially arrested and released into DOC custody. The DA has not said explicitly what for. It really doesn’t matter. I will plea to whatever they bring.
I’m very sorry i disapointed you. I can’t explain the rage. I know it was partly PTSD related…Man what a fuckin idiot i am. I just can’t figure it out why can’t i stop it when i see it coming. I makes no sence. My brain was screaming at me to just Just listen to him. But my hate and bitterness over road all senses. I scared the poor kid and he punched me. I deserved it i know that i did. I bated him into it. What really surprised me is that i didn’t end up pretty broken up under that pile of 10 cops. My right face and forehead were road rashed and my back was a bit sore from the knees. But oh i hated his ugly little hood rat glasses so i smashed them too.
I don’t know where my head is at Amy. Mostly disapointed and pissed off at myself. I Don’t Know what going to happen. But when i do I’ll let you know. L ya Rockstar.
-Brent Brents 1-9-17
Note from Amy: This letter followed a phone call where I was told that Brents had beaten a prison guard, who thankfully was not killed but was indeed injured.
These days its children who are coming through the gates. Fresh faced. some already hardened little criminals. Gang members, murderers, rapists, and drug dealers, and users. Prison is no longer about punishment. It is a business, world wide. I keep hearing this statement from Inmates. The judge sent me here that was my punishment. Not all these stupid rules we have to follow, and do what these stooped cops tell me to do.
I won’t lie people, there are purely idiotic people on each side of the divide. Stooped barely covers the extent of their choices. There is a lot of tit for tat negativity between inmates and staff. There is hatred that permeates the air in prison. I actually sit and watch all of these things happen each day. Its senility on this grand scale. My days are pretty interesting. Don’t get me wrong, I too have my share of issues. I have serious problems with authority. I am very impatient with ignorance, and ignorant people. Especially if they know what they are doing is just plain fucked up.
Prison is what you make of it. You can make it hell for yourself, or find a way to navigate your way thru the bullshit. Seeing a fight, a sexual encounter, a drug transaction, inmates so high they nod out in chow halls and day rooms. Even here in the yard. All I can say is what a world it is in prison.
-Brent Brents 9-4-16
Asshole took the yard hostage all day long. Kicking the windows and door and screaming. Having the cops going up and down the stairs all day. But he pussed out right before they were going to gas him. They moved him to the fuck up Pod. I just think the universe once again delivers its judgement.
-Brent Brents 5-1-15
So I’m Not the most loving guy when it comes to Black people. I do try but its Not easy in here. However It seems to me that White American Law enforcement officers are literaly getting away with mindless Violence from racial profiling to capitol murder…
There has to be a criminals quit your bullshit. And for those who get stopped get pissed off after you’ve gotten thru the stop, Comply with the cops. There has to be some trust both ways. And for Shit Sake stop covering for fucked up cops people.
-Brent Brents 10-9-14
We all do it. But here in prison it is crazy. Cops do it, staff do it, Inmates do it. Kid you Not prison any where would make soap operas look tame. People die over the stoopidest shit all brought on by gossip. I try not to do it. Unsucessfully mind you. Mostly is is my anger and frustration with the Staff and inmates. Things i don’t understand and situations that get confusing or out of control.
-Brent Brents 3-10-14