Category Archives: Prison

Mind your own business at all times but be aware of whats going on around you at all times. Learn to read the environment and the people. Their eyes faces and body movements can tell you any number of things. Whos carrying drugs or contraband or a weapon. Who’s paranoid or scared. Who’s confident and secure in themselves. Who’s volatile and Angry. Who’s about to attack you or someone else Learn when to make eye contact and when not to. To apologize without being weak or seeming weak. How to speak without being disrespectful. Listen more than you speak. You learn more and it keeps predators wary of your true strength. Challenge those who disrespect you with confidence and respect. Don’t talk down to people, challenge their intelligence. Even if you know your smarter or right about something. If it doesn’t directly affect you leave it be. Never borrow beg or steal. You’ll only end up in debt you can not get out of, sucking cock or getting fucked in the ass. Or dead. Never enter a place without an exit strategy. Never go into an enemies area of the yard or gym. Their cell or restroom areas showers, toilets, sinks, urinals etc. (yes Races and the Gangs all have turf in prison.) Don’t make nice with the cops. Give them just enough respect so they do the same for you. Don’t act suspicious or too cool…

–Brent Brents

I can’t help but hear people’s conversations. Sadly its the same old clap trap violent, drug and sex fueled lies and half truths and sad truths of you and old criminals. Young men who think They know it all, old men who have seen it all and still failed to gain wisdom from it…Angry young white men who are seeking some kind of Love and recognition. There are the National Latino gangs that exist there Surenos and Nortanos (southerners and northerners.) The National White Gang Arian Brotherhood. The rules are generally the same. Same criminals. Just different Names and faces. Close security here is Just as dangerous and volatile as Limon, Centenial or Sterling. Baby rapers must die, sex offenders are pieces of shit and fair game. Survival is the name of the game trust No one. Watch your back as well as you can. And if you do have to fight, Fight as if your life depends on it. Well because it does. If you win the first encounter it doesn’t mean you’ve won the fight. Its probably not over and it may not be the same opponent in the second or third encounter. One must Never fear Killing another human being. Because they don’t fear the consequences of killing you.

–Brent Brents

ok so i tried to sleep . Key word (TRIED) it isn’t easy being bi polar and mentaly fucked up. I swear there must be a Dung beetle running around in my brain. Packing shit balls in all the very wrong places. So i am on the manic side right now.

When i was a kid in juvenile i spent alot of time in isolation because i just couldn’t get a handle on the bi polar mania. And wow the isolation took a hell of a toll on me. I often retreated into this fantacy land where i had a family and all was well. Amy i was so lonely as a kid in juvy. We all were. It was worse on some of us. And the really bad thing is that there were some realy good people who really tried to help me. I just couldn’t overcome my trust issues enough to accept it honestly. And i was so so screwed up mentaly. I still don’t understand how i have come to be able to manage the ups and downs with the ability i have now. And they are much worse now. I do believe that you are a big part of it. Plus age and maturity.

– Brent Brents, 10-24-10 8 30 a.m.

Did it get cooler there today? It did here. I can actualy tell by touching my window. Yesterday about this time it was warm to the touch today its Not. Fall weather. I know-pretty soon you and the pack will all be hating the snow. It’s bad for us to. The Snow brings lots of depressions and it gets even uglier in here if you can believe that.

-Brent Brents 09/30/10

Hey there my friend. Greetings from the fuckin piece of shit chomo homo. That what I’ve been dubbed today. Ah well i did the ugly stuff so i have to endure the ugly truth and hatred. Anyway I don’t need to bore you with my lifes misery. I finaly got to disinfect this cell! Now that’s a positive.

-Brent Brents, 09/30/10

I can’t hear myself think. The idiots are yelling and banging. My mentaly ill neighbor Bangs the shit out of his door every 5 minutes. Down stairs the Naked Bleep and the Nutty Nazi have been at each other all afternoon and another one is instigating everyone.

-Brent Brents, 10/03/10

My tummy hurts real bad tonight. I couldn’t hold my dinner down. You know i do believe we all pay for our wrongs and our sins. I’m paying for mine. And ya know its ok. The people i hurt deserve Justice even if it sucks for me.

-Brent Brents, 10/03/10

Ya know it isn’t easy having my brain. Part of it has a perpetual hard on. Part of it is bitter and hateful. Part of it Loves deeply, part of it is paranoid and cracked, part of it constantly goes thru what i could have done different. Part of it wants to help the victims Part of it is ashamed, remorseful and really does have empathy. Part of it is fearful of letting you down. And none of it ever slows down or rests. I have somehow managed to get my mind to function thru all its insanity. Or maybe function insanely well. Not sure which.

-Brent Brents 9/30/10

Brent Brents, 09/16/2010, 3:05 a.m.

So heres a short list of things i never got to do and regret.

Raise a family
Make love to a woman i was truly in love with
Not rape
See Niagra Falls
See the Amazon
See a whale shark
Own a Ranch
Got to know my siblings

So thats my list. I suppose i could do a bucket list but i’d Never get to do it.