A response to readers

Thank you for sharing your thoughts. I am always gratified and heartened by those who understand that this site is a search for the “why” behind sexual assault and abuse in order to prevent these cycles.

For the person who wanted to know if Brents could be lying about his childhood-please know there are medical and psychological records (some are posted on this site) that confirm he was sexually abused by both parents and also physically abused by his father. I obtained those records from the Denver Public Defender’s Office after Brents signed a HIPPA release. Brents’ younger brother was permanently removed from the home. Brents was removed from the home but returned.

For the person who implied that this site “idolizes” Brents–let me be clear. I do not idolize Brents. Nor do I feel sorry for him. Nor do I believe that anything could possibly justify his crimes. I, too, believe he should never be free.

Yet he is not an animal. He’s a human being who committed horrific acts and I want to know why. Denying his humanity or how he was made only serves to perpetuate the existence of predators like him.

And if illuminating the issues of his case raises awareness that helps just one person, it’s worth it.

This is in response to the school counselor who had questions about reporting suspected abuse. Your school should have its own policy, so ask administrators what that is. If that’s not clear, or is insufficient, contact your state’s department of social services on what the law is and how to report.

Also, here’s some information, below. The most important elements to remember are that those who work with children, such as educators and counselors, are mandated reporters–which means they are required by law to report suspected abuse or neglect. And that word “suspected” is key-the law does not expect those educators and counselors to be investigators. Also, state laws vary, but mandated reporters are protected for confidentiality.

This is from the U.S. Department of Health & Human Services.

Every State legally mandates that educators report suspected child abuse and neglect. A mandated reporter is anyone required by State law to report maltreatment to the designated State agency. However, some States clearly define that teachers, principals, nurses, and counselors are included in this mandate, while other States designate all school personnel. In addition, almost every State levies a penalty against mandated reporters who choose not to report. This penalty ranges from a fine, a misdemeanor charge, or time spent in jail. Until recently, most States did not strictly enforce these penalties, but this has changed within the last few years. A number of States have sanctioned nonreporters for failing to obey reporting laws, so it is important that educators know the reporting laws for their State.

In addition to penalties for not reporting abuse and neglect, all States provide immunity from civil liability and criminal penalty for mandated reporters who report in good faith. In other words, the law requires educators to report child abuse and neglect, provides protection for those educators who become involved, and penalizes those who fail to meet their obligations.

For information about each state’s requirement and where to make a report, the Rape, Abuse & Incest National Network has excellent information on their website.

And here’s some tips on how to recognize signs of child abuse or neglect, again from the U.S. Department of Health & Human Services.

The following signs may signal the presence of child abuse or neglect. The child:

  • Shows sudden changes in behavior or school performance
  • Has not received help for physical or medical problems brought to the parents’ attention
  • Has learning problems (or difficulty concentrating) that cannot be attributed to specific physical or psychological causes
  • Is always watchful, as though preparing for something bad to happen
  • Lacks adult supervision
  • Is overly compliant, passive, or withdrawn
  • Comes to school or other activities early, stays late, and does not want to go home

The parent:

  • Shows little concern for the child
  • Denies the existence of, or blames the child for, the child’s problems in school or at home
  • Asks teachers or other caretakers to use harsh physical discipline if the child misbehaves
  • Sees the child as entirely bad, worthless, or burdensome
  • Demands a level of physical or academic performance the child cannot achieve
  • Looks primarily to the child for care, attention, and satisfaction of emotional needs

The parent & child:

  • Rarely touch or look at each other
  • Consider their relationship entirely negative
  • State that they do not like each other

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Fall weather

Did it get cooler there today? It did here. I can actualy tell by touching my window. Yesterday about this time it was warm to the touch today its Not. Fall weather. I know-pretty soon you and the pack will all be hating the snow. It’s bad for us to. The Snow brings lots of depressions and it gets even uglier in here if you can believe that.

-Brent Brents 09/30/10

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piece of shit chomo homo

Hey there my friend. Greetings from the fuckin piece of shit chomo homo. That what I’ve been dubbed today. Ah well i did the ugly stuff so i have to endure the ugly truth and hatred. Anyway I don’t need to bore you with my lifes misery. I finaly got to disinfect this cell! Now that’s a positive.

-Brent Brents, 09/30/10

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I can’t hear myself think

I can’t hear myself think. The idiots are yelling and banging. My mentaly ill neighbor Bangs the shit out of his door every 5 minutes. Down stairs the Naked Bleep and the Nutty Nazi have been at each other all afternoon and another one is instigating everyone.

-Brent Brents, 10/03/10

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we all pay for our wrongs and our sins

My tummy hurts real bad tonight. I couldn’t hold my dinner down. You know i do believe we all pay for our wrongs and our sins. I’m paying for mine. And ya know its ok. The people i hurt deserve Justice even if it sucks for me.

-Brent Brents, 10/03/10

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it isn’t easy having my brain

Ya know it isn’t easy having my brain. Part of it has a perpetual hard on. Part of it is bitter and hateful. Part of it Loves deeply, part of it is paranoid and cracked, part of it constantly goes thru what i could have done different. Part of it wants to help the victims Part of it is ashamed, remorseful and really does have empathy. Part of it is fearful of letting you down. And none of it ever slows down or rests. I have somehow managed to get my mind to function thru all its insanity. Or maybe function insanely well. Not sure which.

-Brent Brents 9/30/10

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A response to reader comments

To the readers:

I want to sincerely thank you for visiting the site. And for those who have taken the time to leave a comment-I’m extremely grateful for your input. And I want you to know that we (the webmaster guru and I) are posting every comment so far, both positive and negative. These issues are far too important to ignore, so heated discussion is better than no discussion at all.

To answer the question of, Were Brents’ parents ever charged? -According to the few records on this I’ve been able to find so far, his father was arrested on abuse and neglect charges, but the case was dropped-I don’t know why; there was no reason stated. His mother, as far as I know, was never arrested or charged.

To the woman who is concerned that Brents is lying about a childhood of abuse in order to manipulate me-thank you for your concern.  Please know I have copies of medical and psychological records that document physical, sexual and emotional abuse done to Brents by his parents during his childhood, and I obtained these documents from the Denver Public Defender’s office after Brents signed a HIPPA release form.

To the woman who strongly disagrees with the premise of this project and believes I am using it to further my career–I understand that these topics bring up strong emotions and reactions. Thank you for sharing yours. And if I were not already solidly confident in the work I’ve done over the years, I would never be able to do this project. In other words, it’s been my career so far that has led me to this case, not the other way around.

Last, but certainly not least, I want to respond to the women like Jessica and Alethea, who are survivors of unthinkable pain. I am amazed and awed by your ability to stay at the table, so to speak, with a topic that must be a wrenching one for you. Thank you for reaching out to try to help the rest of us understand your process of healing, because it’s inspiring. Your perspective is invaluable, and I admire your bravery.

-Amy  Herdy

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For the whole story

Stay tuned to this website for the publication date of the book, Diary Of A Predator: A Memoir, for an inside look into the mind of Brent Brents and the impact his story had on the journalist covering his case. Part of the proceeds from sales of the book will go to Street’s Hope, the non-profit organization that helps women leave the sex-for-sale industry.

Here’s an excerpt. Continue reading

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So thats my list

Brent Brents, 09/16/2010, 3:05 a.m.

So heres a short list of things i never got to do and regret.

Raise a family
Make love to a woman i was truly in love with
Not rape
See Niagra Falls
See the Amazon
See a whale shark
Own a Ranch
Got to know my siblings

So thats my list. I suppose i could do a bucket list but i’d Never get to do it.

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A response to Troy

Brents responds to Troy, a reader who says he was also abused as a child.

Troy,

I read your response to the website recently. Bizarre is a mild way of putting our childhood similarities. There have been, and are millions like us. A sad truth.

Yes too often society ignores Beaten, abused and neglected Children. Is it because no one cares? Maybe a percentage of people don’t really care. But as i age and mature, i learn to really look at it in a way that has begun to make sense. I have come to believe that many witnesses to these horrors, ignore or turn away because of pain. Either having to acknowledge personal traumas or having to commit to feeling the pain of supporting a victim.

I think, No i know, i never stopped to look at the big picture. If a person reports the abuse of a child or a woman they are acknowledging and commiting to that person. Opening themselves up to experiencing so much. So i can genuinely get why people “mind their own business.” I don’t agree, but i can certainly see why.

And yes we who have been victims often turned to the authorities.  Trusting and hoping for resolutions only to be revictimized by the systems ignorance. And this system often empowers the victimizers through its ignorance, lack of funding, improper or lack of training. Overburdening of victims. Overwhelmed, undertrained, understaffed. That’s the system.

Troy i was in a juvenile institution with kids who were seriously disturbed and in therapy sessions. i heard “our” stories over and over again. At the time it only fueled my hatred for authority and the system. But as i look back now it has saddened me.  I envy those who have been victims and overcame and achieved. I wish i could have not ended up like this. I say “this” because my mind is really screwed up.

At 35 you were able to change your life. At 35 i was unable to cope with the world outside of prison. “We need a revolution.” A damn good way to put it Troy. I do this with Amy in spite of what goes on in my head because it saddens me to think of people ending up like me or just being victims period.  And believe me i battle myself daily. I will never be “cured.” My brain is hard wired to violence, sexual or otherwise.

At just ten years old i learned what it was like to gain power thru rape. And it changed me in the worst way. Because i embraced it like i have heroin, meth, alcohol, destructive relationships, sexual deviance, hate, rage bitterness and anger.

I have worked hard these last few years just to let go. just let go of the resentment for all the hurts and pains i endured. It hasn’t been an easy journey. I still often find myself inexplicably in fits of rage, fantasizing about brutally hurting people. I go into deep depressions contemplating suicide because the one person i truly loathe is myself in these states of rage.

So i want to do what i can to keep people from creating ways for children to become like myself. I don’t know the answers to the solution. But i hope my honesty will help in the process. Thank you for using the site.

Some of you want to know how Drugs and Alcohol have affected me. Badly i would say. Most often my addiction made it easy for me to make bad decisions worse. I was able to do things i didint’ think i had the stomach for. And eventualy empowered me. Not in a good way. My addiction led me to become violent quicker and act with no feeling for Those i abused. And my addiction helped me to avoid my own very deep insecurities. Being dishonest with myself instead of accepting the reality. There is nothing i can do about the addiction in my case but simply acknowledge its destructiveness. And just not do the drugs or drink. Let reality take its course. Acknowledge my insecurities. Be honest with myself. And that is Non Negotiable to me.

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