Author Archives: Danielle Alberti

Ladies and Gentleman it is my sad duty to report to you that the King of Rock-N-Roll Elvis Arrow Presley was found dead in his hotel bathroom this morning. I will Miss him as i am sure all of you will. 33 years later i can still remember those exact words on the Radio in our Oldsmobile 88 as we sat in a Safeway parking lot. My Mom sobbing uncontrollably. I didn’t really get it. But she was hurting so i hurt. Somewhere that compasionate little boy got Lost. He is there for you and Ellen. And for others who suffer. Yet he can completely Disapear when he is hurt or angered. 33 years ago today a great singer performer died. And somehow on that aniversary today i remember a moment of pure empathy for someone who i have hated, and often wished would have loved me.

– Brent Brents, 8-16-11 10/20 p.m.

I just have to find an equalibrium between day time dosage and night time dosage of meds. So i am Not so fuckin tired during the day. But i think I’m there.

– Brent Brents, 8-15-11 9 30/p.m.

My eyes? Reading is becoming an irritant. My right eye works so hard to focus it starts to burn and Tear up. Now and Then i have to stop because everything will just blur out But if i keep the book about 16 inches from me no closer and no further away i do ok. Don’t worry about your chicken scratch i can read it just
find fine.

– Brent Brents, 8-15-11 9 30/p.m.

How was your day? Wonderful i hope. I was up till 1 A.M. Doing work on that behavior packet they gave me. It requires alot of writing about Manipulative behavior i use or used with  Counselors Shrinks etc. I bet this guy will be pretty astonished by my answers. You know me blunt, No holds barred.

– Brent Brents, 8-6-11 9 30/p.m.

So i got my first two lessons in the behavior program… I’ve done similar stuff More times than i can count, but i always bullshited my way through it. I will do this honestly…there is No point in doing otherwise. This is a chance to help myself, so i might as well do it right the first time. Actually i look forward to it. It will eat up some dead time in a good way. Thats hard to do in here.

– Brent Brents, 8-4-11 9 20/pm

Our pod has become a loud one with the addition of one person. Now its the motor mouth Downstairs, the dude down stairs and this New one up here. All three are in their early 20s. Imature and raring to be big Men. So its a daily battle for dominance now.

– Brent Brents, 8-2-11

I’M a bit better today. So heres the deal. Fatigue in extremes caused by the medicine and my brain is fighting like a Pro Rodeo bull under a bull rider. So Although one part of my brain is worn out completely, the other part is 100% alive and extremely agitated. Mania isn’t even close to a good discription. And to top all that off i am feeling the fatigue and anxiety/mania physically. If i lay down to read ZOOM bing sleep city. So i sit up and i get restless so i walk around my cell. And i also get the shakes in my hand if don’t hold the book w/ two hands. My brain is really rebelling against the meds.

But i will tell you it’s working The mania is leveling off. The compulsive stuff is less than it was. I will always be a clean freak. But the other stuff is decreasing in entensity. Its gettin better. I am going to ask for the 25 mg of clomipramine in the A.M. to be added to the 25 mg at night so i won’t be so sluggish During the day.

– Brent Brents, 8-2-11

😦 Sorry! Note Coping to well. Please hang in there. Smile and wish me luck.

– Brent Brents, 8-1-11

MENTAL ISSUES I’LL TRY Again tomorrow

– Brent Brents, 7-31-11 10 P.M.

Hi! 🙂 Hi! Hi! Did i tell you that on medicine the mood swing into mania is really intense? ZOOM! TO THE MOON ALICE! …So my hands get restless, but i can’t sit long because i get frustrated with whats going on in my brain. And i am often just to damn doped up to want to do anything anyway. But All of this is much easier to deal with on the meds than it was off them. So I’m on a little roller coaster but doing pretty well.

– Brent Brents, 7-30-11 10:00 P.M.