I might sound like an asshole tonite. Well i’m pissed off. See we have this person who drives on every fiber of my being. He’s a totally fucked up piece of shit! Sorry i know i shouldn’t judge people. But if any of U spent 10 minutes around this guy you’d be wearing my hate filled shoes.
He is full of hate, talks constantly about beating peoples children to death w/ a ballpien hammer. And other sexually violent things about peoples children. Its driving on me, i hear this motherfucker talking this shit all day long every day. What can i do…
My faith and the fact that i cant afford to end up in GP ( general population ). I pray people, it came to a head tonight. I will not have this person around me. I aint going to do any thing to him. But damn it my mind is totaly against me. I’ve spoken to U all before about how i think when super super stressed.
Like i said i pray. I ask God to help me not to follow thru w/ my violent desires. I cant tell U how angry i feel w/ this guy. Lets just say i get how alot of U feel about me. Man i get the hate alot of U must feel. Also though i believe this is coming from empathy. I can’t emagine why this person wants to do these things. But his vocalizations R so upsetting.
Yes this is me of all people disgusted w/ him, and myself. I mean i’m fantasizing bad shit about this dude. So i’m mad at myself for thinking this kind of shit. Talk about being a hypocrite. I won’t hurt this person, but its tearing at my soul. The sick talk about hurting kids, and his other bs is eating at me. I’m at the point where i don’t even want to come out of my cell.
I’ll get thru it, i know this is a test.
-Brent Brents 4-30-2018
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So the threats and name calling have dulled down to a full Roar. Mostly because they know they can’t get to me. Plus i don’t Respond to them. Childishly or any other way. I have one dude who loaned me a stamp For two in return and threw in the envelope for Free that i mailed this….Dying in a really brutal way Does Not appeal to me. Dying I am at peace w. But I really want more time.
Yes I see the counter argument for it. I really think killing a humans soul thru rape is worse than out right murder. Although both are wrong. Shattering a childs or a womans soul is Daily torture for them. Although I’d like to believe that we die and go to heaven if we are innocent. I just don’t know this to be a fact. I do believe in God and i think there is a special place for all God people who die. If i were given the choice today the table or being stabbed or beaten to death. The Table of course. Holy crap i hate pain these days. I just don’t heal right any more And everything i hurt badly 20 years ago steadily reminds me Just how much pain comes with age.
-Brent Brents 7-23-17
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So I’ve heard this lately (It was consentual.) Holy crap it enfuriates me. How do 5 year olds consent with a man shoving a penis in their asses repeatedly. Or an unconcious woman consent. These guys use this to make it ok, or make themselves less responsible. I know I’m No better than these guys who tell me this. I tried the same crap for a minute. Yet i came to the reality that they (the victims) did not consent. By saying it was consentual, I placed the responsibility on the victims. I just can’t see why i needed to do this. It didn’t make me feel any better. I still knew i was predatory. I still knew Rape was a murdering of the soul.
Don’t get me wrong that same person Resides within me. But i know i have to constantly be aware of how i am thinking. When i get angry or anxious i become that person again. I don’t rage as often as i used to. I credit my pysch meds for that. But still i rage inside sometimes.
-Brent Brents 2-20-15
Oh heres what was written on my granola bag. “Feed your soul with Good thoughts. Feed your body with Good things. Make today a New day!” I thought this was a cool thing in a world where Negativity rules most things.
Brent Brents 9-9-12