I’m not offended about being called an animal

In November, Bruce wrote to Amy to express his own opinion about Brent Brents.

I saw the story on Paula Zahn’s show and it disgusted me greatly. I have never commented on any of the things I have watched before but this really hit me in a negative way. I can’t understand why animals such as this guy have the following that they do. Why do people become fascinated by these guys and the crimes they commit. I was a law enforcement officer for a short time in Texas and had dealings with some of the most horrendous crimes imaginable, such as the murders of Dean Coryl and Elmer Wayne Henly but I never felt the urge or desire to idolize them or empathize with them.I was just thouroughly disgusted and appalled by their crimes. My empathy was felt toward all the victims and their families. I guess I don’t understand the fascination and I hope I never do. I remember you calling him a human being and that set me off even more. He gave up that right, not after the first victim, or even the second, but all the others after. He even told you that he would continue to hurt, if he was released. It was at this point, I became so upset, that I deleted the program from my Tivo, before it had ended. I don’t want anyone to try and justify why he did what he did. I don’t care. We all have problems and we all have had bad times in our lives, but not everyone turns down the road he did. He did it because he wanted to and for that he should not be idolized or empathized with. He is an animal, who chose to hurt people and rightly so, he should never see the light of day, outside a cell.

Bruce, 11/08/10

Brents responded:

I have been reading some of the posts. Thank you, all of you for using the site .I want to respond to one person in particular. Bruce who posted on 11/08/10. I hope Amy will reposition Bruce’s post just above this so all you can see how i and this man can hopefully stimulate a greater depth of discussion.

Most of you will either agree with Bruce or will find him seemingly hardline and angry. The truth is Bruce represents millions of Americans. He expressed disgust in the Paula Zhan tv show. How it hit him in a negative way.

So be honest, unless your a sexual predator any story like mine upsets you and disgusts you in some markedly human way. You feel sadness and empathy for those i victimized or even myself. Or you are reminded of your own abuse, or someone close to you who suffered. The subject of sexual abuse, rape or other abuses are Never Comfortable and more often than not taboo.

Bruce calls me an animal and can’t understand why people such as myself have a following.

I’m not offended about being called an animal. It’s one of the nicer names people call me. Yet it fits. Every time i attacked someone, used their bodies, tortured their minds, i was acting like an animal. I was detached from all moral and ethical feeling or thought. So he is right in a sense.

As for having a following. Man, i hope Not. I don’t aspire to be anything great. I don’t wan anything for myself. My particpation in the TV program, radio and the website are all strictly in the hopes that my life can some how help victims past present and future.

Bundy, Manson those guys enjoyed the attention, had, have a following. I don’t want a following. It’s pointless and dangerous. And i refuse to allow anyone to use me to somehow glorify Rape and sexual violence. And as for Bruce Not being able to understand why people become fascinated with people such as myself and the crimes we have commited, Hey, bruce i don’t understand it either. Yet there are some whose fascination isn’t seedy or disturbed. And i think you confuse Amy’s desire to prevent victims from becoming predators with a fascination with me that is somehow seedy and disturbed. We have developed a friendship true. And believe me, i beat you to the how the hell do i deserve it part.

Brent Brents

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3 responses to “I’m not offended about being called an animal

  1. Patricia Goodwine

    Brent,
    I truly don’t believe that of Amy. I believe it started out as a job for her and turned into something more that she and you didn’t see coming. People develop relationship for all kinds of reasons. Good or Bad, relationships has a seed and the farmers (people in the relationship) just tend it, to wait and see what happens. Yes they have some control where it can go but the feelings involved in that relationship is what isn’t in their control. I have wrote a few entries to you today because my brother is like you but he is weakness is children. For many years I had loved and worshipped my brother, but one day he did things to me that turned that love into a hatred I couldn’t control. That hatred led me into my adult life but then my father told me one day that people can’t control what they feel but they can control what they do with those feelings. Wise words from someone that loved both my abuser and myself (my abuser’s victim). I testified against my brother when he was accused of sexually abusing a child. I thought that would take my pain away but it didn’t. So another 6 or 7 years passed and my father was on his death bed giving me those wise words to help me understand I can’t control anything in life but what I did. So I sit down and wrote my brother in prison and forgave him. That is when all of the weight of my pain was lifted. No I didn’t forget what he did to me, but forgiving him gave me my life back. That is what I hope you understand. You took a part of those people’s life from them. I hope your victims can forgive you one day. Not to make you feel better but to make them feel better. Brent, May God watch over you and all that people that you hurt. I hope to be able to write in this blog to you more often because what is going through your head helps me understand what happen to me as well.

    • Dear Patricia:
      Your response really touched me. As a victim of physical and sexual abuse, I was so bitter and angry all of the time. I didn’t release the rage until the year 2000 when I wrote my book Survival of the Fittest…One Child’s Life in the Foster Care System. Even then, I still couldn’t forgive my father for leaving me in the foster care system and for attempting to rape me when I met him at 21 years of age. I don’t understand why people are so cruel and why they have the odd need to hurt eachother. Yet, I realize that I should have forgiven my Dad. Because by the time I reached out to him, he had been dead two years and no one bothered to contact me. Sometimes, I think of him with a pain in my chest. It isn’t what happened that hurts me. It is what could’ve been that sears my soul until I cry.

  2. Kelley Scott

    I think Bruce still has cop in him and therefore “hates” all criminals… rapists, addicts, prostitutes. You know? The ones that allowed to him to even have a job? Nobody is perfect Bruce. I would sure love to know some of your secrets. If you are are too immature to finish a program BUT still feel the need to write on a page about it… maybe you need help?

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