Ok I’ve been thinking alot about why it was so hard for me to ever truly trust in any one. Fear of humiliation played a big part. To me Trust and love were for suckers and fools. I wasn’t going to be either. Plus i spent 95% of my life around people who were just like me.
I broke as many hearts as i had mine broken. I used 98% of the people around me. Fear, cowardess. Damn Amy people tried. I was such a coward I’d start caring about them and what they thought about me. It was so hard to literaly let go of that fear. You and Ellen somehow got thru. Irene well that was more of the old me user-user-user.
Brent Brents 3-25-12
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